True Self, The Devil, and Shooting Yourself in the Foot

 

Why is it so hard? Why do we almost make things happen, but not quite get there. Why do we start things and not follow through? Why do we put things off until later/never? Why do we find excuses? Over and over again.

Showing up as your true self is amazing. It is powerful. It is healing. It is connected. It is real.

It is real scary.

We can fear our own power.  It is different. It is a new way of being. It feels odd. Maybe we feel too big. Maybe we feel we shouldn’t dare. Maybe we feel we don’t deserve it. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

So, to support these doubts. To stay with the status quo. To keep change from happening, to keep us from showing up, we conveniently shoot ourselves in the foot. We set up roadblocks and believe them to be beyond our control.

But it is not the truth. This is where the devil lives. Making us believe that it is out of our hands, that we are powerless to remove our chains.

The devil is hoping that we don’t notice that the chains that bind us are actually loose. They are just hanging there. For us to remove at any moment. But we believe the story. We believe that these roadblocks are created from outside of us, therefore we stay chained.

And when we shoot ourselves in the foot, yes, it is our own doing, our own action. But we still blame it on something that can’t be helped: we are stupid, we are lazy, we are forgetful…

As if that is fact. Just the way it is. The devil lies. And we believe.

To remove the chains, to be set free from what pulls us down, we don’t need to ‘do’ anything. We don’t need to try to break the links with our own bare hands. We don’t need to fight. We don’t need to struggle to squirm out of them.

We just need to stop believing in them…